If you watch me for the sake of hoping that I'll watch you back, then please don't waste your time. I only watch you back if you talk to me or if I admire your stuff - I wish to avoid an unnecessary art spam.
I'm Midnight, and I'm delighted that you took the time to look at my little corner of art!
My art style is very cartoon-y, with a bit of anime mixed in too. I like to just draw whatever I want, so I'm afraid it's pretty rare that you'll catch me doing requests or commissions.
If you do want a commission though, I don't mind if you shoot me a note anyways (unless I explicitly have 'COMMISSIONS CLOSED' on my page somewhere). I might feel like I have enough time and motivation to do one!
What else...? Well, I like a lot of things! I tend to dabble in and out of fandoms at my leisure. My main show right now is MLP FIM (never would've guessed with the ponies all over my page), but I've also seen Naruto, Steven Universe, RWBY, Beyblade Metal Fusion/Masters, Avatar: The Legend of Korra, Love Live, Sailor Moon, and a bunch of others that escape my mind right now.
I'm also a fan of the warriors book series...aaaand I'm mad about Pokémon especially too!
All favourites and comments mean a bunch to me, and don't hesitate to chat with me! I'm a friendly person when you get to know me. Promise!
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These are the people that I would do absolutely anything for ;w;
They are awesome people, and you really should spam them with the love that they deserve <3 These are the people that have my support, and true friendship, and I am ever so lucky to have met them <3
If you ask to be put in this box, then I will ignore you. You gotta work hard for me to recognise you as one of my best friends.
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~To Do List~
And I'm sorry guys, I've not been very active at all these holidays, have I?
Most of that boils down to the results I got on the 13th of August, about...halfway through my summer holiday. They weren't what I was expecting, at all.
I was expected to get BBB this year.
But instead I got BCD.
B in ICT
C in Chemistry
And, believe it or not, the D was in Art.
As you can imagine this is a significant wound to my pride as an artist. I was already having doubts about whether I wanted to continue drawing and submitting on DA or just kinda drop all art and keep the account for social purposes.
And this...it's just been a huge kick to my already low ego. I've lost the motivation to draw and comment, lost the motivation to follow through on ideas. Lost the motivation to even get out of bed some mornings.
I've tried to be positive and crap but it just doesn't work. I poured my heart and soul into my art project more than any other subject I've ever done (I sometimes skipped lunch and crap!) and it turned out to be my lowest grade, whereas, in comparison, I barely did any revision for my ICT grade and pulled out a B.
I mean...it's just...what's the point of even trying?
And I'm stuck in this stupid college for another year because apprenticeships don't open for the application process until September at the earliest, interviews are in January/February and so on. And I'm not going to waste a year hanging around.
And I'm definately not going to university.
I guess you can say I'm just depressed. It's not nearly as bad as the place I was in a few years ago when I was constantly bullied and had no self-confidence whatsoever, but I genuinely can't bring myself to do much of anything. And it's not about me being lazy, it's about me just...not being able to even bring myself to try anymore.
And you can say "Oh it's already over now there's nothing you can do about it" but just...stop. Don't. That is not the thing I need to hear right now. It doesn't help.
Or "Oh at least your grades are okay *insert person here* got all Us" or something.
That doesn't help either. I've had people saying that to me for weeks now and it just makes me want to get out of bed even less. I didn't even bother getting dressed today because, just, what's the point?
My mum's boyfriend, Mark, hasn't been helping either. He asked what my D was in and when I told him, do you know what he said?
"Oh, it's only art. It doesn't matter, then."
IT MATTERS TO ME. It's ALWAYS mattered to me! It's the one thing that's mattered and I got a D!
The one grade I thought I absolutely knew what it was going to be and it turns out not only to be wrong, but it turns out to be the worst.
I don't know how many of you can relate, but I...I just can't. Can't even comprehend or anything.
Especially because, see, my art teachers are the ones that are supposed to mark the work. This is because, as you can imagine, sending all that coursework and sketchbook work off to the few art examiners that exist would be a nightmare. So the teachers mark everything and then an examiner comes along and selects a few at random to check the grade.
My teachers constantly said I was working at a B.
My teacher told me that it was marked as a B.
So...like...I just don't even know what went wrong. I don't know if everyone in my class has bad grades too because I don't have any friends in said class.
But my teacher was apparently furious with the results because the examiners agreed with his marks but changed them anyway, or something? I don't know - he wasn't at the school when I picked my results up.
So...that's why I've not been doing anything. And I've got 2 weeks left of my short English Summer Holidays. I need to re-revise chemistry and...whatever. I need to get a start on next year's art project too, but I cba at all.
Because again, why try? Why bother if I'm just going to pull out another bad grade. This is the first time in my life I've ever had to deal with this problem of not being good enough.
And I just...don't know what to do.
I'm still slowly working on stuff, like Apphy's ref sheet, I just...can't do it right now. And I don't know if I want to just...stop. Start posting maybe a thing a month, if that.
Or if I should pick art back up because clearly school is a waste of time if I'm not getting the grades I want and need to.